What the Hell
This week was weird. Not only this week, acutally the last few weeks in general. The one thing I'm constantly thinking about is the big change that is going to come soon. EB elections are coming up in about two weeks... (!!!) At that time I will know, who my successor's going to be. To whom I will pass on what I've done, what I've processed and learnt during this amazing year. Our team experience is going to be finished. We'll be able to pass our LC on to the next generation.
It feels strange that something that had this huge affect on you for one year is soon going to be over. Or is it?
Ten days after my last blog entry, things have cleared up about the near future. I've made some decisions during that time, yes. But the further future is still very blurry. Too many options again. Isn't this weird... (no interrogation mark here!)
People are trying to persuade me, are telling me to do things, to apply for positions. What the hell? What if I don't want to apply for certain positions. What if I don't feel ready for certain positions? What if my head tells me something else than my... heart, stomach, scar on my back...? (whatever part of the body you might want to choose...)
Decisions aren't about what you're supposed to do, what you want to do or what other people want you to do. They are about what feels right. And right now, it feels right to make decisions at a later time. To move certain experiences further ahead. To concentrate on me, myself and my personal development.
In a year from now, looking back on this time, I might regret that I didn't do enough notes taking, diary filling and blogging. But I will remember this time as being very stressful, very reflective... a time of great change. Change that might have been hard to take at certain points. But one, that was well thought through. One that doesn't need to evoke regrets. One that felt and still feels right.
"Camille et Franck" - Ensemble C'est Tout Soundtrack
It feels strange that something that had this huge affect on you for one year is soon going to be over. Or is it?
Ten days after my last blog entry, things have cleared up about the near future. I've made some decisions during that time, yes. But the further future is still very blurry. Too many options again. Isn't this weird... (no interrogation mark here!)
People are trying to persuade me, are telling me to do things, to apply for positions. What the hell? What if I don't want to apply for certain positions. What if I don't feel ready for certain positions? What if my head tells me something else than my... heart, stomach, scar on my back...? (whatever part of the body you might want to choose...)
Decisions aren't about what you're supposed to do, what you want to do or what other people want you to do. They are about what feels right. And right now, it feels right to make decisions at a later time. To move certain experiences further ahead. To concentrate on me, myself and my personal development.
In a year from now, looking back on this time, I might regret that I didn't do enough notes taking, diary filling and blogging. But I will remember this time as being very stressful, very reflective... a time of great change. Change that might have been hard to take at certain points. But one, that was well thought through. One that doesn't need to evoke regrets. One that felt and still feels right.
"Camille et Franck" - Ensemble C'est Tout Soundtrack
Labels: AIESEC, Random, Thoughts on my mind
posted by François at
18:14
2 Comments:
I dont really know if you know me...:-) But I know you from AIESEC and I loved your post...it's exactly the way I felt 3 years ago...
Handing on my VPPD position to someone else was very cool (I had an excellent successor), but it was very strange as well...it's just getting your "Baby". On the other hand, ppl were telling me what to do and what not to do...your post just reminds me so much of this situation..and I totally agree with you: DO WHAT YOU FEEL WHAT IS RIGHT FOR YOURSELF AND YOU WONT REGRET IT, CAUSE U WILL GO YOUR WAY. IT'S NOT ONLY ONE WAY THATS THE RIGHTONE FOR YOU, THERE ARE MORE. thats what I learned, maybe that can help you...
Sue
not getting your baby, but handing it over to someone else, thats what i wanted to say, hihi..:-)
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